Thinking about it

[kitanzi]

I've been thinking more about the incident I posted about yesterday.



If anything relating to that comes up again, I will say something. I'll try to think out, generally, what I want to say in advance so I can try to be clear (and not stammer) but not accusatory or confrontational. I'll try to ask questions instead of make statements. I'll answer the inevitable question of whether I'm saying this because I am gay with the truth - I'm bi - rather than playing semantics games and saying no. (Though it would be literal truth, I'd feel that I was splitting hairs, and I doubt I'd sound convincing. I almost never am in that circumstance, because I feel like I'm lying, and I'd rather tell the full truth and believed than the half truth and be called a liar anyhow. Being poly is unlikely to come up - I'm pretty sure the concept just isn't in their world view.)

I don't know if it will come up any time soon, but we'll see. I feel better about it for having decided a personal policy. At previous jobs I've kept my mouth shut, but I've never heard this level of bile at any of them. I've always divided my home and work life fairly strictly that way (with a couple exceptions) and rationalized it as being no one's buisness. It's not their business - but just how angry that made me makes me realize it must have bothered me more than I thought. Maybe I'm changing, figuring out my own mind and growing up a bit more... maybe I'm just being stubborn. That wouldn't be anything new. Obviously, all this is subject to change, but I've been doing quite a bit of intensive thinking about it in the last 24 hours or so.

Anyhow, as for why I think my job is particularly vulnerable and why I don't think the legal avenues against sexual orientation discrimination would do me much good - I'm a temp. The company I come to work at daily doesn't need a reason to let me go - they can just tell the temp agency they don't like me any more, or don't need me. If the temp agency fired me, well, I'd just be another contractor they didn't happen to have work for. They would never need to say they did fire me - "We'll call you when we have something." This is not to say that that would necessarily happen, but I am aware that I would have a lot less leverage against it that a permanent employee would.

I'd also like to add that I looked back at yesterday's post and it started out sounding awfully anti-South. Sorry for that - I was feeling very adversarial just then, and it felt a lot like them vs me, but I do like it here and those were bad lines to imply for the them vs me split.

Anyhow. Back to my day.

Comments

[pocketnaomi.livejournal.com]

Just for the record:

There are New Yorkers -- and bisexual ones -- who disagree with the decision vehemently. Not for the same reasons as your neighbors; because we do not believe that separate-but-equal works and we think it is a shabby way to avoid trying to make life okay for gay teenagers in the regular schools. I don't believe in state-run black-only schools, I don't believe in state-run Jewish-only schools, and I don't believe in gay-only schools. And I see this as the antithesis of the bigotry you've been facing.

I'm not mad at you, though I am mad at my city for the decision. I just wanted to let you know there are multiple ways to look at the question without being evil.

[kitanzi.livejournal.com]

Um, okay. I'm not sure why you think I would think you were mad at me, since I've said/agreed with people who were saying much the same thing in this and the last post.

[pocketnaomi.livejournal.com]

Didn't read comments, read the posts by themselves. What I get for being in a hurry.

[kitanzi.livejournal.com]

*hug* whew... I was worried I'd gone and somehow said something totally opposite of what I meant and not realized it. :)I don't think that even the first post ever said I was in favor of the school, though, did it?

[pocketnaomi.livejournal.com]

No, it didn't.