Perchance to dream...

[kitanzi]

Well, the call from the doctor's office said all the lab tests came back normal, so my thyroid is fine, and presumably my insulin is also - they didn't specify which tests but I know the doctor mentioned both. I clearly fixated on this solution more than I thought I had, becuase my first reaction was disappointment - not a really good reaction to someone telling you you're healthy. Oddly enough, I *am* actually feeling much more alert this morning, and I think I have been incrementally for a bit. I think ACat's cpap is making more difference to me than I first thought (I know it's making an enormous difference to him!) I know last Sunday night, the first night that he slept next to me with it on, I slept horribly, and it seemed to me that I was waking up and thinking he wasn't breathing, simply because I couldn't hear it. Then the next few days and nights I was frickin exhausted, but frankly that often happens to me around that time of month. Last night, though.... well, I slept well, and I woke up rested. We're just going to have to see if this actually lasts through the day or if I'm falling asleep at my desk this afternoon (which, frankly, the hurry-up-and-wait doesn't help with either). ACat suggested I might ask for a referral for a sleep study if the blood work showed nothing, and I think I will, but I may wait a bit and see before I schedule an actual study, because if this lasts... well, if this lasts, I may finally feel like I'm actually caught up on my sleep. I'm not sure I remember quite what that feels like.

Also, relevant to nothing at all, I'm driving east for most of my morning drive straight into the sunrise, and at such a time that I was driving in the dark but now it's coming out while I drive, and it's just a little higher and brighter every day. It makes my morning commute almost surreally gorgeous, with silhouettes of trees, buildings and hills against what seems an endlessly varied backdrop of blues, yellows and pale oranges streaked with clouds. It's a really great way to start a morning, and I'll miss it once daylight savings kicks in.

Comments

[sdorn.livejournal.com]

Glad there's nothin wrong with your thyroid, sorry you're still in search of a cause, and I'm glad someone likes driving into a sunrise!

... and for a second I misread one phrase as "a sleep study if the bloody work showed nothing." Time for caffeine, maybe?

[kitanzi.livejournal.com]

Maybe you need more sleep! *G* Well, driving into the sunrise when it's just barely starting is gorgeous. Driving into it when it's over the horizon and blinding is a lot less so. Driving east into the sunrise also means I'm driving west into the sun in the afternoon, which means I have good sunglasses and keep the visor down and still squint!

[celticdragonfly.livejournal.com]

Believe me, I completely understand the feeling of disappointment when they tell you the labs are normal. Because there's stuff you've been experiencing you don't like, and hey, if they'd said the labs weren't okay, then maybe this would have FIXED it. That's such a tempting thought. I felt just that way yesterday when they told me my thyroid levels were still okay on this dosage - I'd been hoping maybe we could fix some of the no-spoons pregnancy miseries.

[technoshaman.livejournal.com]

*grump* "But, Doc, I feel like hammered cow patties!" Too many docs out there too willing to give up and besides you've gone over your 15 minutes and he's got six more patients to see in the next 90 minutes before his tee time...

Need to find some bright young internist willing to dig and get to the bottom of this.

As for kitanzi, hopefully your hubby's better sleep really is making yours better, and this will just fix of its own accord... but I totally understand both your frustration...

[autographedcat.livejournal.com]

I will say, in defense of the doctors, that I'm really happy with the staff there. I've been seeing a nurse practitioner there for the last 2 years on various issues related to blood pressure and general health, and she's been fantastic, always listens to me, and seems genuinely interested in how I'm feeling and what's causing it. She's the one who suggested the sleep study to me when I complained about constant fatigue.

[kitanzi.livejournal.com]

Seriously, the doctors there do seem to listen. If she wanted to dismiss me and get on with the next patient, she could have easily said "It's because you're fat - obviously you don't eat properly or exercise enough. Lose 60 pounds and call me back." There would even be some validity in that, though I don't think enough to account for the level of tired I all too often am. *shrug* But she didn't do that. I do hope this gets better, yeah, though the fatigue wasn't the only reason I jumped at the possible thyroid connection. It was the only item on the list annoying enough to keep pursing help with, though.

[celticdragonfly.livejournal.com]

They didn't happen to tell you what the levels WERE, did they? One thing that's just occurred to me - when I first got tested (pre-1st-pregnancy), they said I didn't need treatment. I asked further - turned out I was "borderline". Knowing what I know now, an actual endocrinologist might actually have treated me. But it did definitely mean I had to keep an eye on it and get re-tested - and yeah, post-1st-pregnancy I did need treatment.

[celticdragonfly.livejournal.com]

Eh. Honestly, the answer to this seems to boil down to 'every pregnancy is different, sucks to be you'. I'm not seeing regular doctors, but midwives - and they do give me lots more than 15 minutes, and discuss things in detail. I don't want to let an internist at me during pregnancy - I *had* one pregnancy with doctors and hospitals, never again. And nothing seems to be wrong with the baby.

Frankly, this whole placental mammal thing is just, gah. Perhaps I just have managed to pick men whose placental genes are unusually efficient in sucking me dry on the baby's behalf.

I really hope the prevacid will help. And probably the weight and generally being out of shape is part of it. Depressing to be at my lifetime top weight right now.

[kitanzi.livejournal.com]

I certainly hope you can get more spoons soon, one way or another! *hug* That sounds utterly miserable.

[eloren.livejournal.com]

There are people the get good nights' sleeps? Kewl - I didn't know such people existed :-)

[kitanzi.livejournal.com]

Well, they ARE mostly people who don't have two small children. *G*

[billroper]

You wouldn't be the first woman with sleep apnea, if you have it. (Or the last, I'm sure.)

If you're getting eight hours of sleep and are falling asleep at your desk, that's a clue. If you snore, that's another clue. If you're waking up frequently in the middle of the night to go pee, that's another clue, as it turns out. (There's a hormone that the brain secretes that tells the kidneys to ease up on the urine production at night. If you've got really bad apnea, it never kicks in. I'd get up one hour after going to bed, and an hour after that, and two hours after that... And none of that was because of diabetes.)

[kitanzi.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm often up once during the night for the bathroom, but nowhere near as bad as you're describing. ACat says I snore slightly, but not always - seems to be mostly when I have a cold or hayfever. If I have this wrong, I'm sure he'll correct me. :) There are other sleep disorders though, so it could be worth checking. I am not generally literally falling asleep at my desk - though there have been occasional days where I wouldn't swear against it.

[billroper]

Once a night isn't so bad. :) I had a really severe case of untreated sleep apnea, so I had all of the above miserable symptoms.

And there's certainly nothing wrong with getting a sleep study if you suspect that there's a problem. OTOH, my friend Sam tests out negative for apnea, but he's certainly got some kind of as yet undiagnosed sleep disorder...

[quadrivium.livejournal.com]

Let's hope the good night sleep you had starts a trend! I am really happy the days are getting longer as well. I have a lot of flowers coming up, and that really makes me happy. I really should have added some soil amendments this past fall, but time and money weren't there. I think that will be different next year, so hopefully, there will be even more lovely flora.

*big spring-is-coming hugs*

Love,
Mary

[kitanzi.livejournal.com]

You do realize this is a prime lead-in for "how do you flowers grow" jokes, right? *hug*